SickSucks

these days... i felt like almost 'die'...

heart broken.. keeping mad.. heavy sick.. 

and SAD..  =(

i felt very bad seriously...

i did something to made my bf angry...

and also those actions made me going crazy..

but i CAN'T control myself...

some little small things could make me mad...

maybe I'm 'SICK'... 

but seriously... I get cough and cold now..

coughing make me so suffer...

and my nose keep running...

feel like hell...  ><

but this is not the biggest deal...

the main reason to made me sad is my CLASSMATES..

before i talk about that,

could you answer me...

'Am I a person who is NOT FRIENDLY?'

if your answer is YES, then i have nothing to say...

if you answer me honestly NO,

then you can pity me now...  

I did my best to treat them well and kindness..

but what they treat me back is just nothing.....

[ Last week I checked the noticeboard online, I saw the lecturer announce us, we should create a group for the assignment. Then I faster text one of my classmate to inform her about this news, and also ask for join her group.

In the messages we wrote:

"hey XXX, Wen Fen here. Your assignment group already full or not? If not, can I join your group?"

"huh? lecturer got ask for create assignment group now?"

"ya. I saw lecturer post on the noticeboard just now. so we should create a group, maximum 5 persons."

............ waiting for her reply ............

 after 45 minutes, she replied me this: 

"my group already full."

@#$%#^$^*!!!! what the hell is this???
I inform you 1st, and I ask for you 1st...  
but what the hell you answered me?
I cool myself down and replied her  politely: 

"ok then, never mind la... thank you.  =)" 

see... i did nothing wrong to them...

but i dont know why...

girls hate me... guys afraid of me...

they just wanna keep distance from me...  ='(

even i always sit alone in the class... 

actually i dont care anymore...

i dont care i have no friends...

i just hope the bad time can pass faster..

i dont wanna face them...

i want make friend with the kind ppl and the ppl 

who understand and knows me...

im so tired to cover myself...

im not that strong... im not that cool...

i just a simply girl who need friends  :'(